Wrong With Me
Jaeger Cormack
Words
Walking up the stairs
With one boot on my foot
I’ll take these pills that make me ill
And take all these dirty looks
Asking for a smoke
From a group of students scared
Walk into Emergency
With my heart completely bared
Ooooooh. Is there something wrong with me?
My fingernails are dirty, and I haven’t washed my feet
Ooooooh. Is there something wrong with me?
Is that me in the magazine?
Is that me on TV?
Olanzapine and Lithium
Making me so dull
I’ve been set free but inside me
There remains a tedious lull
Talking to my friends
They say I’ve changed for the bad
My voice is trembling
My tone is unbearably sad
Creators
Jaeger Cormack
Jaeger Cormack is an artist/musician living in Vancouver. He has practiced his art since he was 21, and through 7 hospitalizations for schizoaffective disorder over the years. He is now 48. His music often does not deal with themes of illness, but the two songs published in Fig:ment Magazine do. Are You Talking To Me depicts the first time he had an episode of psychosis, and the subsequent hospitalization. Wrong With Me is a song about living in institutions and taking medication. The songs deal with the euphoria and the devastation of the illness.